Already gone.

I keep looking at houses.

Recently i found a house that, assuming it was in good in person as it was online, I would have been willing to sell our house for and move now. Despite knowing that we are going to move somewhere, sometime, we are not looking forward to the actual getting the house ready, listing it, packing, etc. especially in winter. 

It sold before we could look at it. I'm equal parts sad and relieved. 

I did learn a thing or two in this recent search. I thought I wanted to find a house that would cost less, make us more financially secure. Well, who wouldn't, right? But it's not possible if I want to live somewhere a good long time. We looked at one house that was small, cute, and totally possible. Then we looked at a house just barely out of our price range. In a few years, it probably would be a good deal for us, compared to private schools, but not now with a part time nanny and the upcoming cost of preschool. But it, along with the unseen house, is actually where I want to live. 

If we get in a position that we must move quickly, the less expensive house would do. But really, I can't see giving up the space we have and the ability to walk everywhere, for something kind of blah. 

So while I'm probably not going to be done looking at houses anytime soon, I realize that I'm only looking for a miracle right now. The house that would be worth it. And when I find it, there better be a garage is all I'm saying. A garage and a large laundry room, and a room for my own office.